I've been trying to for the past few weeks, but then thigs like these come along and make me remember that I'm suicidal (yes, I have severe depression and want to kill myself. Anyone AO+ would have read that in the thread I made). So basically I can't do anything to change things, so you guys can find someone to plan events instead of myself. I know you will all flame me for being overreactive, but I don't think I am to be honest, because whenever I try to fix one of my fuckups, people like bubbles are right there to make me feel like shit. I've PM'd gaff already, so expect me to not be orange in less than a day.