It was late so i was probably thinking all over.
Basically, if someone in your family or someone close to you died, how would you feel.
Would you be happy that they had a good life, or would you think about how you were with them.
And as you said, they are two complete parallel terms of reality, its fake.
But the theme is true.
Sorry for making it all hard to read, that is what happens when you stay up till 12:50