This might come as a surprise for some of you, for others you may have seen it coming. As of today I'm stepping down.
I'm not going to give full explanation as to why, but if you're curious feel free to approach myself or others privately. Reasons ranges from losing passion, not agreeing with the direction the community is heading since my return, and feeling like my time here has really met some kind of a new chapter. I won't be disappearing never to be seen again, but my time here will definitely take a large hit. I love this community from the bottom of my heart. From helping me through a tough childhood, to giving me some of the best friends I've had, awesome laughs on the servers, some little Asian boy who I love, I could go on forever. The reason why I always put so much loyalty, work, and time into this place is because I really wanted to pay it forward to help the next All Ts that came along. Besides the fact that it's amazingly fun it's largely why I've always loved Prison Break so much. Just to throw some love to that server, it's players, you guys are truly fucking awesome. The community that server has had over the past 2 years is truly a blessing because no other people would make that servers confusing ruleset & tiny map rotation work so perfectly. It's some of the best times I've had playing games in general, so sincerely from the managers, ex-managers, admins and most importantly players- thank you so much.
The higher staff (especially the TA's) at this community deserve your utmost respect because no matter what you think they try really fucking hard to make this place somewhere you guys love, somewhere that makes everyone happy. The lower staff the SA's, CA's, you guys are extremely important- without you this place would not run properly whatsoever. Everything from the time you invest, the bullshit you deal with, the ideas that get the gears turning and the pure love for this place is amazing. I know many of you current admins & higher have had to go through my gate keeping on applications- just know nothing said ever was personal. I don't see enough praise given to @Caution when some of these step down threads get made. This guy is a dick, but he's dumped a lot of blood, sweat and tears into this place. So many rumors and genuine hatred fall on this one guy who people couldn't be bothered to talk to even to confirm any of it. Never would I have expected you being someone I got along with well when I got back from my ban. I really wanna thank you for having my back, giving me the chance to help, and trucking forwards for this place time and time again. You have my respect for all the shit you deal with daily, and I wish you the best in your cone waving adventures.
This is the part where I mention a few people and say some gay shit.
@Dominic it would be wrong for me to not tag you here, you were the first person I talked to back at SG cause you reminded me of myself. Hearing clips of what you sounded like 1-2 years ago was surprising to me, and I think you've really started to mature in a great way. We had our ups and downs, but I consider you a good friend.
@eXtr3m3 You're like a brother to me and you know that no matter what happens I'll always appreciate what you've done for me. I'm really glad someone like you came along to show me a way different then my own, it was refreshing and I couldn't thank you enough for all of the things you've done for me.
@Nimmy I never expected you to be such a great friend of mine when we first began talking but I definitely saw something great in you. You're a genuinely good hearted kid, and even if you've stepped down I want you to know you've made my time here so much more enjoyable.
@delirium Watching you step down made me realize that your value at SG went way beyond what I saw on the surface. You really care about this place, and that's something I think I always didn't appreciate fully out of you. Even though you have a way of being rude, or downright overtly argumentative I really think behind it all you're a great guy. I'm really glad I got to be apart of your journey. If you want that deep, mean, analysis of you from me message me on Steam- otherwise fuck you, cunt.
@Reece I'm super proud of you. Seeing you come from a beginner in SG, to understanding so much, so fast was extremely impressive to me. There have been times where I've doubted you, and you have continuously proved me wrong. Your work ethic is genuinely great, you're an awesome kid, and I hope to continue being great friends.
@Luke I really appreciate the faith, loyalty, and criticism you have given me in my time here. You're a great person, don't sell yourself short on that. I honestly attribute my insane passion to people like you believing in me every step of the way, giving me constructive criticism when you felt I had stepped in the wrong direction. Stunning and you were such a breath of fresh air when I came back.
@Roux similarly with Luke, thank you for being so faithful in me. Your encouragement and generally friendly attitude kept me feeling positive towards the community, seeing that despite things here or there it was still great. Playing with you has been nothing less of a joy and hope we can continue to do so.
@Crawfish I don't know how you feel about me personally anymore but I really was surprised with how much you took off after your start. I wish things ended differently for you here, there were many people who I wanted to share a seat with at the big boys table and you were among that group. I haven't seen you around much, but there were many times where discussions with you would make me feel better and give me clarity. All of your work at SG and personal help aside you've gained my respect.
@Post You aren't just a memer. In your time here I really saw a side of you I don't think others saw, you did a lot for portion of SG that makes it a community. You've given so many people happiness on otherwise shitty days, and the amount of times you've helped me out is not something I have ever taken lightly.
@Snowy Thank you for being the definition of a truly loyal, good hearted friend. You are someone I admire greatly for being open-minded and just insanely hilarious. Your return to this community was a blessing, and I appreciate you giving me a chance when others would tell you otherwise.
@Malibu We had our little problems at the start but I really hope for your best. You can come off like a clown sometimes, so I can forget you're a person with feelings. The truth is a lot of happiness, laughter and good times stem from your goofy ass- so thank you.
@Ryoku you're a fucking faggot. Thank you for all the laughs you've given me every single time we speak, sometimes you're a fucking douche but all the same I consider you a good friend.
@Tsuna @Evil You old fucks are some great people, and I miss you guys- come back around if only for 30 minutes.
@Prez You were one of the VP’s I really felt a good connection with. Thank you for being chill most of the time. I really respect the fact that you give a shit and go out of your way for this place. In the 3 VP’s in my time here, you are definitely my favorite. I’m happy I got to work with you while I had the chance to.
@euro likes long names Last but not least. I don't wanna embarrass you, but you know how much you've changed my life.
I could sit here all day writing out how much this community has meant to me, how much the people here mean to me, but you guys already know who you are. So many unique personalities, awesome people, and Believe me when I tell you that every ounce of makes you all great I have not let go unnoticed.
I know many people, even recently have been turned off to me as a person due to my bluntness and I truly am sorry because at the end of the day my intentions have always been in the best interest of the community. There are others in the past who after being downright spiteful towards me, I never really accepted apologies and moved on properly. I’ll take this opportunity to say I’m willing to start fresh and get over past bullshit. I’d also like to say I am sorry for the instances, especially when I first joined the community where my “bluntness” was just me being a cunt for no good reason except just being angry at a transitional stage in life. When I came back I had to fight through a lot of bullshit stigmatization, bias, and witch hunting which honestly made my time here far more miserable. Almost to the point where I didn't just step down, but wanted to leave. This isn't to hold anyone in the current staff to gunpoint (actually the complete opposite) cause there were plenty of them who had my back and saw situations for what they were. I want to thank those people for all of the help, the advice, and more or less keeping me from being permabanned again. The chance you guys gave me to help I hope didn't go without feeling fulfilled at the end of it all.